TWAS A ROUGH WEEK UPSTAIRS, THE OLD BRAIN WAS BEING HIS USUAL NEGATIVE SELF.
WHY DO I ALWAYS NEED SOME KIND OF HELP? CAN I NOT SURVIVE ONE PROJECT WITHOUT SPLASHING THOSE CLOSEST TO ME WITH MY ARTISTIC PUDDLE. HOW MUCH TIME DO I HAVE TO STEAL OFF PEOPLE?

“THE REAL PROBLEM IS MOST OF US ARE IDIOTS, WE JUST LIKE TO THINK WE ARE NOT IDIOTS BECAUSE WE USE S*** A BUNCH OF SMART PEOPLE FIGURED OUT, BUT HOW MANY OF US UNDERSTAND THAT S***? IF I LEFT YOU IN THE WOODS WITH A HATCHET,HOW LONG BEFORE YOU COULD SEND ME AN EMAIL?” – JOE ROGAN

TO KNOW ONES TRUE WORTH IS TO REALISE THAT WITHOUT EACH OTHER WE WOULD DIE. NOT ONLY IN THE PHYSICAL BUT ALSO INSIDE. UNLESS YOUR BEAR GRYLLS, BUT EVEN HE NEEDS A HELICOPTER OR A RESCUE PLANE. THIS BLOG ABOUT MY E.P ILLA SCORZ CAN GO TWO WAYS, IT’S EITHER GOING TO BE AN OVERLY EASY TO READ ALBUM TRACK BREAKDOWN, OR A LONG WINDED BIOPIC SELF TITLED “LIFE SUCKS” ..(STARRING DANNY DE VITO)

WELL LIFE DOESN’T SUCK, TECHNICALLY IT INHALES AND EXHALES, BUT I’LL LEAVE THAT TO SOME BIOLOGIST WHO LIKES TO TELL THE WORLD HOW LIFE EVOLVED. (SUCKING IN FIRST? OR BLOWING OUT?….CHICKEN OR THE EGG. (ALAN PARTRIDGE FACE)

IVE BEEN BUILDING MY OWN BEATS FOR A WHILE NOW, I HAVE AN AKAI MPK MINI, LOGIC X, MICROPHONE, FOCUS RITE INTERFACE AND MIC SURROUND. ALL I NEED TO SELF PRODUCE AND FINALLY NOT HAVE TO PESTER PEOPLE FOR TIME, MIXING FAVOURS OR HAND OUTS IN THE FORM OF KNOWLEDGE AND SKILLS. I TAUGHT MYSELF BY BUYING A LOGIC X COURSE. MY FRIEND JUGA-NAUT KINDLY GAVE ME SOME DRUMS AND BREAKS AND SINCE THEN I HAVE BEEN PLINKNG AND PLONKING ON MY AKAI UNTIL EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE STARTED TO ACTUALLY TELL ME MY BEATS ARE KIND OF ALRIGHT INSTEAD OF “TURN THAT REPETITIVE NOISE OFF WE CAN’T HEAR SAM AND CAT” (NICKLEODEON BIZZNIZZ)

“HEY DEAN LOOK WHAT I DESIGNED FOR YOU!!!”

MY ELEVEN YEAR OLD STEP SON JAMAL WALKS IN WITH A CARDBOARD BOX, REVEALING A RATHER DOPE SNAPBACK HAT. JAMAL TOOK IT ON HIMSELF TO GO ON MY IMAC AND DESIGN ME A HAT WITH THE WORDS ILLA SCORZ ON, ORDER IT WITH HIS DEBIT CARD AND HANDED IT TO ME AS A GIFT. THIS GUY IS A MARKETING GENIUS I THOUGHT. AN 11 YEAR OLD YOUNG PAUL SMITH I HAVE HERE. (WITHOUT THE CHEESE CAKE SWIRLS AND OVER PRICED PENCILS)

“ILLA SCORZ!! I KNOW!!… WHY DON’T WE SELF PRODUCE A PROJECT AND I WILL GIVE YOU A CUT OF THE MERCH IF WE CAN SHIFT A FEW?” I SAID TO JAMAL IN MY BEST DEREK TROTTER IMPRESSION.

ILLA SCORZ… ILLA SCORZ…JUST THIS PLAY ON WORDS AND MY ALIAS “SCORZILLA” HAD IDEAS FLOWING UP STREAM IN THE RIVER OF FOLLY IN MY MIND.

(FOR THOSE WHO WOULD LIKE TO KNOW YEARS AGO I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH A MENTAL ILLNESS, ITS ALL BORING AND LONG AND WELL DOCUMENTED AND I WOULD LIKE TO MOVE SWIFTLY ON WITHOUT SOUNDING LIKE A BROKEN RECORD FROM 2002)

SINCE 2005 I HAVE BEEN ON A MEDICATION CALLED SEROQUEL, IT’S NOT VERY NICE BUT IT DOES STABILISE THE PART OF ME THAT CAN CRACK UNFUNNY JOKES AT FUNERALS, SAY INAPPROPRIATE THINGS IN THE WRONG PLACE AND TIME AND NOT SHOUT ‘THE QUEEN EATS BABIES’ IN THE LOCAL SUPERMARKET. ALL OF WHICH I FIND TOTALLY NORMAL IN A WORLD THAT DROPS BOMBS ON KIDS AND WEARS WHATEVER LITTLEWOODS GIVES YOU ZERO PERCENT INTEREST ON.

SEROQUEL FEELS LIKE IT RIPS YOUR SOUL OUT YOUR BODY AND THEN PUTS IT BACK MINUS ANY TYPE OF EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT OR HAPPINESS TO THE WORLD AROUND YOU. A BIT LIKE A LOBOTOMY. SO IMAGINE YOUR VIEWING LIFE AS A FILM, HENCE THE INAPPROPRIATE JOKES AND THE INABILITY TO TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUS. ALTHOUGH THIS CAN WORK IF YOUR AN ARTIST WHO STANDS ON STAGE AND PERFORMS.

MY WIFE SAMANTHA ALSO SUFFERS FROM A LITTLE DEVIL CALLED “FIBROMYALGIA” WHERE EVEN THE STRONGEST PAINKILLER MORPHINE DOESN’T DO ANYTHING FOR. WHEN WE GO TO THE DOCTORS IT IS LIKE A SCENE FROM THE FILM CLASSIC “SEE NO EVIL, HEAR NO EVIL”. TOGETHER MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY WE ARE SMASHING IT, SHE IS A TALENTED MAKE UP ARTIST AND I AM NOT AS NEARLY AS TALENTED EMCEE/ACTOR PRODUCER MAN.. THING. RAISING TWO CHILDREN (A 13 YEAR OLD WORLD SILVER MEDALIST CHEER CHAMP AND AN ARTISTIC FASHION DESIGNING 11 YEAR OLD ENTREPRENEUR).

WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE MILL OF DIFFERENT MEDICATIONS, CBD OIL STUDYING,
DIET CHANGING, AND THE REST THAT COMES WITH BEING TRAPPED BETWEEN PHARMA AND NATURE (GET IT FARMER? ….ITS THE SEROQUEL) ANY HOWS, I KNOW I SAID AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS BLOG I WANTED TO BE 100 PERCENT SELF SUFFICIENT , WELL IN THE END I NEEDED HELP, WITH TOM CARUANA MIXING MY VOCALS, (GOOGLE HIM , LEGEND) DJ JABBA THA KUT DROPPING ME SOME CUTS, SAMANTHA AND THE ANCHOR AND SAVIOUR OF THE PROJECT LOREN FROM GRAPHIXVILLE BUILDING ME MY OWN STORE AND MY FRIEND KAMRAN HELPING ME, WE MADE ILLA SCORZ MY FIRST SELF PRODUCED PROJECT. I WON’T GO INTO TOO MUCH DETAIL TRACK WISE BUT IT HAS SOME LAYERS AND THEMES BASED AROUND THE WORD ILLA. DOPAMINES? DOPE (PAIN K ILLA OPIATES) SICKNESS (SICK MAN!)

THE WORLD IS ILLA, INFACT I THINK EVERYBODY AT SOMEPOINT IS, IN BOTH GOOD AND BAD WAYS.
DON’T BE SCARED TO BE ILLA, DON’T BE ASHAMED TO BE ILLA, WEAR IT WITH SHADES AND A B-BOY POSE MY FRIENDS.

RESPECT

SCORZ…-ILLA.

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